March 24, 2010

*pinch me so I know I'm not dreaming...or just let me dream*

It's kind of sad that it has taken me this long to get to this point.
To a place where I fully, totally, completely trust God with the next step in my life.
It almost makes me laugh when I think about the fact that I could ever doubt what God is doing.
Nine years ago, God gave me a dream.
The question then wasn't, "How will that work out?" It was more like, "Holy crap God, I'm scared! Do I have to?"
But over time, the dreams that he placed in my heart became so important to me, that they were really MY dreams.
And now I'm in a place where I am looking at choosing another step towards that dream, and I'm wondering why God isn't making that next step obvious.
Until now, the next step has always been clear:
-finish high school
-go to college
-study what I love
-now what?

I went to a chapel tonight and the guy talked about David and Goliath and how our past victories with God can give us hope for future victories.
God has been so faithful to me thus far. Why wouldn't he continue to be faithful? Especially if I am seeking his will and pursuing the dreams he placed in my heart almost a decade ago.


  1. My little grin when I started reading became a great big smile by the end.

  2. God always directs and the little victories prepare us for larger one to come...